Will 'this' change?

I'm in doubt now whether the situation will change. Don't think so it will change by the way it looks now.

Why they do 'activities' at night??? Can they do during daytime n finish them by night (at or before 12am)??? I did too at night, but i don disturb others.

Do I need to tell them 'face-to-face', asking them to 'go on bed' early? I ain't their mother and it is a common sense to not disturb others (if u have the senses).

I'm feeling kinda tired, just 'dealing' with this, although not really 'deal' with it. But i'm physically and mentally tired and exhausted, not even doing my assignments and facing my exam papers.

How i wish i'm a 'noble person', then i 'let go easily' and easily deal with people. How i wish i have the mind and heart of the monk, then i won't care that much and have a peaceful mind and life.

And i can only wish because it can't be realized....

SUFFER~ing

Why am I so sensitive??? If only i'm not...

Really feel like suffering these few weeks and the main cause of my suffering is Jayn & the Gang.

At 1st, i thought she is juz a 'small prob' of this 'BIG prob' i'm having, and i did told her that...

But now only i realised that SHE is unexpectedly the 'BIGGEST prob' of this 'big prob' i'm having...

The reason is because she hang out w/ them till very late at night at the living room, so they will continuously chitchat-ing... If only she off to bed earlier, then i guess the boys won't staying up so late at d living room, they will go to their room n continue w/ their games or what-so-ever.

Is there something going to happen on me??? Why am i having this similar feeling again???

I started this blog by complaining about my the other friend, and now i started to complaining about Jayn...

I'm really grateful and thankful for who ever turns up in my journey of life, no matter she/he is bringing me happiness or sadness etc.

I know i'll be OK after this, but as for now, i really can't take it, i'm so afraid that I might explode. But somehow, i hope i can explode sooner so that i can 'convey my feeling' to them... Why can't I be like Yin Yin, that so brave to scold at them.

I guess I'm different from others... GOD, please do help me get through these within these few more months... Plsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss...............................

In shock~~~

Wow, i only posted 4 in the year 2010.

And when i started to post this year, 2011, it is already October. 2-3 months left for me to write n post. Wow~~~

But it is really 'a pity' to see d decreased of numbers of my posts since i started this blog. Well, tats me, only 'passionate' at the beginning/starting... Haha...

Erm...

Shud i start my blog again? I can't guarantee tat i'll update often though.

Have this thought of starting coz i start to read frens' blog, and they seem never stop writing.

But what shud i write although i, myself, have many thoughts n feelings. I'm juz too lazy to write them down. I shud change this laziness of mine.

I'm not sure when my next post will be after i posted this. Haha... Or mayb i'll post continuously after this post. Who knows?~~~