My New Story

I do feel like wan to explode dy… ReallyX100000000 can’t stand it anymore… I can’t even face her when I talk to her... I feel not comfortable n a little bit guilty to her... Its all bout the day when she almost faint coz of her asthma… On last Friday (12/10), me n my frens said that v will sleep late on that day coz I’m gong back to my hometown dy…But as the time passed by, one by one went up to their room to sleep dy, only 5 of us who leave, of course included me n her… At bout 5am something, she laughed so hard that she got asthma, the guy, one of our fren, told me to take her medicine b4 tat but I answer him I duno where she put her medicine, coz I really duno, but at tat time, I do feel like don wan to care bout her, so I continue with my thing… My another gal fren accompany her to our room to take the medicine b4 her condition become worst… But she can’t walk anymore after she step out the comp room, so my fren rushed to her room to take the asthma medicine, coz she oso got asthma b4… I only know tat her condition was worst when the guy inform me coz he went out n saw her lying down, so I rushed to our room to find for the medicine but I couldn’t find it coz I duno where she put it… Luckily my tat gal fren got the medicine… After that, she was sent to the clinic to hv treatment… I din follow her to clinic, I stayed at our hostel… Since tat day, I feel tat I’m a bad person, coz I din care bout my fren… U know wat, she dy make me don wan to care bout her anymore, unlike my other frens, I do wan to care n understand them more but in her case, I don wan, not even a little bit… I never dislike some one like this b4, this is my first time… So I feel really bad bout myself… If I don like one person, I’ll still talk to him or her, I mean I can still ‘stand’ them but I can’t stand her… It is a serious matter for me coz I don wan myself to feel bad… But I oso can’t find any solution to my problem… U know wat, I’m now can’t even tahan when I heard her voice n see her face, coz it so irritate me… She give me the feeling of ‘FAKE’, she herself is a FAKE… I can stand everything, almost everything but not a FAKE person… I duno wat I did wrong tat the GOD wan to punish me wif this kind of punishment… I’ll give my everything juz to get back my happiness n freedom… Please take her away from me… At first, I thought I’m the only one who think like this bout her, but after I talk wif my other frens (new frens), they oso feel the same way… It juz that they don hv to live in a same room wif her like me… I went back to Jerteh on my last holidays (Raya), I oso talk bout this wif my frens, they oso complaint bout her… I duno if I should feel relieve or feel bad for her, coz many of our frens don relly like her… But although v don like her, v still talk to her, I mean v r still frens… I really wan to find way to solve this coz I don wan to live like this but I can’t find it… But I oso don care much bout this, coz its ok for me to treat her like orang asing, like v don know each other… GOD, please take her away from me, I really mean this, I wan my happiness again, I don wan to hav bad feeling, at least don make both of us live in the same room anymore, make us meet each other less… Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee…..

She is Back!

She is back now... I am back.. Although i hv no good feeling bout her, but i still hv to find my way to communicate with her.. No matter how much i don like her but i still hv to talk to her.. This is my first time having this kind of problem n this is also my first time to not like some one this much.. Haiz.. How can i be like this.. I'm not being myself.. I hate to be like this..

Can't Stand It Anymore

I really really can't stand it anymore.. I mean REALLY... It so annoy me... Hate it...

IT Group Assignment

I'm doing my IT group assignment now.. Like always i'm doing it at last minutes... V hav to pass up to our lecturer on this wednesday, but v hv to finish it by monday... Haiz, i don feel like doing it, but although so i still hv to finish it, coz it is 20% of my marks.. Really hope tat i can finish it, but i oso think tat i can finish it.. Haha..