**Happy 20th Birthday**

16th April 2009

Today went to Sushi King to eat RM2 per plate sushi n 顺便 celebrate my 20^th birthday… At first I was afraid that I haven’t ‘recover’ from my bad mood yet, yes, I haven’t, not until I arrived at the Sushi King at 1U and saw two of my Malay ‘friends from my hometown, we studied at the same secondary school, although we don’t have much interaction but I do remember their faces… This ‘met’ really make me feel surprise and this had make me feel better actually… Luckily I sempat ‘recover’…

I ate exactly 10 plates of sushi… Then later they helped me celebrate my birthday, Elaine bought me a chocolate cake, Gloria, Aza, Jasmine and Melvin helped me to pay for the food I ate… They did sing me birthday song which makes me feel embarrassed yet happy…

This is my second times celebrate birthday with friends (lot people)… The first time is in my hometown when I was 18^th with Siew Hua, Chin Sia, Chia Ling, Kai Bin, Han Wei, Ming Kun, Chin Yun, I think I missed out some, forget dy, sorry… Hehe..

Although it is an earlier birthday celebration, but I’m still happy…

Thanks to Elaine^^, Gloria^^, Aza^^, Jasmine^^ and Melvin for celebrating my birthday… I won’t forget today de…

17th April 2009

Today received messages from friends and also family... It is 祝福 messages... Thanks to them who doesn't forget my birthday... But I kinda have a weird feeling, felt like my birthdays was yesterday, maybe cause of the celebration... Haha... But anyway, I had an unforgettable 20th Birthday this year... Really thanks to all my friends...

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14/4 (Tue) went to watch ‘Confession of a Shopaholic’ and ‘He Just Not That into You’… Although the 1^st movie is about shopaholics and their ‘world’ but it also touched bout “LOVE”, as the title, the 2^nd movie is all about “LOVE”… Today I just finish watched a Korean movie titled ‘My Sassy Girlfriend’, it is a long time movie and it is not my first time watching it, and yes, it is about “LOVE” again…

Watching or reading about “love story’ really make me feel ‘something’… I can’t think of a word now to describe my feeling… But how I put it, ‘various’ of feelings and thoughts…

Sometimes I wonder what LOVE has that made one’s life upside down… I guess I won’t know now because I never experienced it… But listen to my friends, watching/reading so many love stories, had made me a conclusion “LOVE = Happiness+Sadness”, although there are much more feelings and ‘things’ in LOVE…

Don’t know why but I feel a bit upset when I saw my friends are sad or crying because of their ‘LOVE’, if the boyfriends love them why they still hurt them, I really don’t understand this… I know that in every relationship (includes friendship) there sure will be 伤害, but if we try to minimize it or at least try to work it out, then won’t it better for everyone…

Sometimes I do wish that I can live in ‘a world’ that is only making of ‘love, trust, and peace’, but I know that I’m only dreaming… How human being was created at first? I do believe that they were once very pure and innocent, living in the world with peace… But don’t know what had made humans nowadays???

Although I’m saying all these things, but me myself as a human, can’t run from what a human being is, which mean I’m also a part of them, I’m also acting like them, which I really wish I’m not… I really want to be nice, kind, yes, I did, but I also did bad things… which sometimes really made me feel like ‘giving up’ the human being and the world…

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Once!

Just done my fees payment... Later 2pm class...So still got time to write here...
Here my story go for today...
After having my breakfast+lunch, I went to Petronas to withdraw money for my fees payment...
I withdraw RM4000, which my fees is RM4050...
After we walked to school's bursary department to pay...
I haven't count the money I withdraw yet, which I always do that every time before...
I took out the money from my bag and let the person count the money... I thought wana borrow juz RM50 from my fren coz I din bring enough money...
And thing happen when she said that the RM4000 I gave her is not enough, it is juz RM3950, I started to look in my bag, and u know what I can't find the Rm50, so have to borrow RM100 from my fren...
Now I started to think that it is quite impossible for the ATM machine to give u d wrong amount of money, so there is only one possibility, which is the person herself count wrongly, or did she intend to 'take' my money 'personally'... Not sure bout this, but the ATM machine never did wrong to me, they always give out the correct amount of money I asked for...
If really the person who 'count wrongly', then there is nothing I can do lor, juz think that I 'donate' to school, so that I'll feel better...

WHY???
Why everything must happened to me once so that I can learn from it?
Last time also, I was cheated for RM500 coz of some reasons... Then I had learn my mistake...
This time also like that... This is juz couple of examples, there are a lot more actually happened to me, it juz that I can't think of them now...
But from these two examples, the conclusion is the same, which is 'TRUST NOBODY'....

Why human must learn from mistake?
Why we must pay some 'price' for it?
Is it we pay for our 'lessons'?
Why am I too easily trust in people?
But why human have to cheat/trick/lie?
I really want to trust people and believe in them without any doubt...
Don't u think that it is tiring to doubt people?
It is for me... Thats why I trust in people...
But what they have gave me is only broken the trustworthy I gave them...

Although so... I still believe there will be good people out there somewhere...
My frens are also trustworthy... Are them??? Are u guys???
That they will have to answer themselves, I dy gave out my trust to them...

Lesser Posts...

First time started blogging (first year), very rajin, will write a lot... Almost everyday will write... No matter important or not important de stuffs will also written in d blog...

Second time blogging (second year), still rajin but lesser compared to the first time... Still write all those important or not so important stuffs... But the days to write will decrease...

Third time blogging (third year), now seem like not so often to write down stuffs...The posts much lesser compared to the first n second year... Hope that this year will write a lot la... Coz this year will be my last year for diploma... After that will separate with frens... We all are going to walk on our own path... So hopefully we will create a lot of memories this year... Coz we got a lot of things/plans that we wana do... Hope that can done all those plans... It will be great then as a memory~~~

Sickness???

Lately I'm not feeling well...But its not that serious though...
If I'm not taking myself, then I'll sick for sure...
Sickness 1 - flu
Sickness 2 - fever
Sickness 3 - sore throat
These are the sickness I'll get if I keep not taking care of myself...
Coz now also I'm having all these symptoms but not serious yet...
Hopefully won't get worse la... I dy drink a lot of water these days...
~~~Fighting for health~~~