My fear

If everything going on plan, then i'll go to register at KDU on 11 August, n start my life in Petaling Jaya - a big city, i think... I hope that my plan won't change coz i'm now hate staying at home while all my frens are studying now..Only me (n my fren - sook meng) who still at home.. I'm staying at home too long, more than 6 months, now thinking of studying at KDU make me feel a little bit lazy n afraid coz i'm too long not study n read a book..Haha.. I afraid that my brain is 'disfunction' already... I oso afraid to live in the big city, coz v often heard that big city like PJ n KL is dangerous, many criminalization happends there n often happends... I oso afraid that i might get 'change' after i stay at there for a long times...I mean get influent by my frens... Not being bad but things like wasting money to buy branded things, go to pub or disco( juz to try it)..... What else??? Erm, can't think any of it now.. Thats all for today..

Not understanding mom

Today evening, i went to the clinic to do treatment on my teeth but unfortunately the doc said that she can't do it for me coz the treatment need bout one month time n i'll be going to KDU in august... I told my mom bout this n she complain... She oso said me not doing things well n so on... I'm quite mad at her for saying like everything was my fault, is my teeth hurt my fault, is it my fault for don get the appointment, is it my fault that the doc can fix my teeth... Haih, i hope she can be more understanding coz this is not the 1st time she soing this to me.. Last time SPM result out oso like this, it happended on my birthday...That making more sad...

P/S : Actually i only mad on her for bout 1-2 hours n not more than that..Coz this is not really 'serious'..Haha..Furthermore, i'm positive thinking person...

惊人的消息

几天前，爸爸回来告诉我们一个消息，我听了非常惊讶，简直不敢相信。我爸说俊雄的爸爸说最近这里的十几个年青人 involved in drugs, included his son…. Polices found them but the police released his son (俊雄) coz the police know him… My dad said that he can’t believe that ‘Tommy’ grandson which is my fren oso involved in drug… I was like “huh…really?? How could he??”… Duno this is true or not… Although I wish it is not true, but duno why deep in my heart I do believe that this is true coz my fren is really close to 俊雄, so mayb he is effected… My bro oso said that long time ago there was a drug supplier at a salon here, so 俊雄 n his frens always hang out there… 俊雄 bro was so mad with the drug supplier so he went to hit him… Not long after that, the salon was closed… If 俊雄, I do believe that he is involves in drugs but I hope that my fren is not coz if he is then my other frens that close to him will involve too, I think… Hopefully what i heard from my dad is not true.... Friends, drugs is not a good thing for us to touch, so please keep it away... Think of ur family n ur frens... May god bless u....

白羊座的欢喜冤家

欢喜冤家 ：巨蟹座 ，山羊座 ，天平座

白羊和蟹子性格上是天差地远型的，不过天生孩子气的白羊座是蛮需要巨蟹座母亲般的照顾和呵护，柔弱的蟹子也很喜欢白羊的果断和天真，但是情绪上则是要双方去努力配合。

白羊和山羊则是冲动以及稳重的两大对比，但是白羊的行动力是山羊所没有的，而山羊的深谋远虑也是白羊做不到的，如果能够多多互补的话，美满的未来指日可待。

至于天秤做是白羊最理想的伴侣，因为只顾别人的秤子和颇为个人主义的白羊可以合作得天衣无缝，变成人人赞叹的一对。

还有通常白羊配秤子也是属于大好大坏型的，这就全看白羊如何发挥自己的爱情 EQ。

Koong Chin Sia

She is one of my frens... I know her since v were 6 years old... But i still remember that v r not really frens when we were in our primary skol.. We become close in this few years.. Coz of some reason, we all need to be together most of the time, so that v become close... I really like this fren, coz she always 'argue' wif me.. Haha.. Weird huh... Erm, how to say this..... I like to argue wif her when she is saying something, no matter she is right or wrong, i like to 'deny' what she says... She too sometimes do this to me... So its fair for both of us... I hav seen an article bout our horoscope ( me= aries, she= capricorn ) in a magazine n i think its quite true... I'll post it later when i found the article coz i forget which magazine... I juz called her one hour ago, its late dy, but she still studying coz she said her exam is near n she drank a cup of coffee so she can't fall asleep... I'm quite happy to hear her voice n she din change, still the same b4 she go to matriculation... We talked in the phone for bout juz half an hour coz i don wan to disturb her study.... She is still 'silly', talking bout leehom.... Actually i like talking wif her coz she can make me laughs.... Haha... She hav holidays in august but i don think i can meet her coz i think i'm studying at KDU already by that time.... But i'm not worry coz i know we will meet again next time sooner or later, i mean all of us.. We promised to hav a gathering when all of us in jerteh.. I know that v can keep d promise... Waiting for the day.... Frens, i really miss u all, no matter where r u now... Saranghae....

语言 Languange Bahasa

世上的语言多的是，应该数不清吧。
我对语言这东西相当有兴趣，还记得以前曾经吹过 ‘日风’，很多电视台都播放日剧 ，那时就开始对日文感兴趣，就从日剧学了几句日文 ：arigatou gozaimasu (thank u), ohaiyo (good morning), sayonara (good bye), aishiteru (i love u), watashiwa XXX desu (i’m XXX), ima (now), ume (dream)…..
过后电视台又播放来自南美洲的戏剧, 我们这里称它为 ‘Telenovela’，就这样我又学会了几句 ‘拉丁语’ ：mi amor (my love), mi hermana (my sis), mi hermano (my bro), chao (bye), olla (hi/hello), pourfavour (please)(my own spelling), tranquila ( =tranquility), te amo (i love u).....
现在吹起了 ‘韩风’ （Hallyu）, 电视台也开始播放韩剧， 但本地电视台播放的韩剧并非用韩语，而是用华语的，这一点我非常不满，但这并没住址到我学韩语，因为真版 VCD 可以听韩语的，而且网上的 videos 也是韩语的，through korean songs, we can also learn a little bit korean, i think this is how i learn korean, although i’m interested in learning korean but i found out its quite hard, not juz me, many ppl said that korean is a difficult languange to learn, its one of the most hardest language to learn in the world...
虽然如此，我也学会了几句 ：saranghae (i love u), kamsahamnida (thank u), chin gu (fren), oppa (gal calls their bro) , hyung (guy calls their bro), oni (gal calls their sis), noona (guy calls their sis), appa (dad), omma (mom), harabuchi (grandpa), haemunni (grandma), wue (why), molla (don’t know), boragu (wat u say), keonkang (健康), keothoon (结婚)....
现在的我只会3种语言，那就是华语，英语和国语 (马来文), 我想只要是马来西亚的华人都会这3种语言吧。因为自己蛮喜欢语言，所以我希望能学会其他语言，我最希望能学会日文和韩文，我有想过未来想修读日文，但这只是我的一厢情愿，未来还不知能不能时限。

PS: U guys can leave comment now ( i think) coz i had made some changes in my profile...

DBSK@TVXQ Songs

Some of the song from DBSK that i love to listen to..Here r the song list :

18岁的第一次

2007年了，年龄也随着增加，今年的我18岁了。
这一年，我做了蛮多之前未做过的事，也发生了不少事。
这一年，我去了 Perhentian Island，也去了 Redang Island。
是和我的朋友一起去的，说真的，那段时光我真的很高兴。
现在回想起来，就很怀念那时，希望未来我们还能一起去。
就在这一年，我竟然驾驶了120km/h ， 我之前驾驶都没超越100km/h ，而且也 ‘学会’ 了闯红灯，也是第一次驾去了瓜丁（瓜拉登嘉娄），那时是跟朋友们一起去的。我们还去了Setiu玩paintball，那是我第一次玩，但玩得不够刺激。
2007年4月17日， 就是我正式踏入18岁的日子。朋友们很贴心，帮我庆祝了我的生日，这是我第一次和朋友过生日，我们去了Kuala Besut 吃 ikan bakar，他们买了 tiramisu蛋糕给我，也送了我礼物，但最令我感动的是女朋友们为我准备的小字条，她们所写的，真的令我很感动。
这一年，也将离开家里，到外面读书，生活，虽然不知道自己能不能适应新的环境，但我知道无论如何也必须把日子好好的过。

乐观与悲观

我认为自己是个蛮乐观的人，也许是容易满足吧！
但无可否认，有时自己也会变得悲观的。
以前的我总是以悲观的想法来面对事情，甚至还想“死了，算了”。
就是啊，以前的我若面对伤心的事，我就会想说：“若我死了那有多好，不用在面对伤心的事。”或者说：“反正死了，也不会有很多人会为我伤心，过了一端时间，他们就会忘了我。”
但现在的我不一样了，我在不知不觉中改变了。
我想我的改变是在我 Form 4 时，那年不知为什么，我突然变得特别 ‘大胆’。就是，我变得比较积极，比较敢向老师发问，话也变得比较多。。。
一旦发生事情或遇到伤心事，我也不会很在意了，最多会想它一两天，然后就用另外的看法去面对或忘了它。也许说，我已经想得开，放得开。
悲观，现在离我越远了，我想这是件好事。
我很高兴自己能拥有乐观的想法，我会用它去面对未来的种种问题！

H w a i t i n g ! ! !

加 油 ! ! !

HOW SM MISTREATS THEIR SINGERS - Rumour or True

**After jtL left the company (woohyuk, tony, jaewon from H.O.T.), they released a couple of songs that directely pointed to Lee Soo Man. They basically talked crap about Lee Soo Man ; what he did to them. So then, SM got pissed off ; threatened all the major television companies that if they allowed jtL to come perform on their shows, then SM would pull out all their artists from that channel.

**Andy of shinhwa was one of them that got reeeally hurt by him (LEE SOO MAN) he was covered with bruises and blood once.

**When Boa was still in training, SM's owner, Lee Soo Man, made H.O.T and Shinhwa members teach her how to dance, sing. (this was about summer of 2000) HOT and Shinhwa members was all busy with their scheduels, yet they still had to teach, had no choice. And when Boa got impatient or was frustrated.....the members was too......but Lee Soo Man always favored Boa, and the extreme i heard was the Lee Soo Man hit (physically) H.O.T and Shinhwa members.

**Lee Soo Man favored the most popular out of the group. For ex. H.O.T Lee Soo Man asked Kangta and HeeJun secretly to re-sign with SM, b4 even their "H.O.T" contract ended. And kangta and heejun did, while leaving out the other 3 members.

**Lee Soo Man also under paid H.O.T. When H.O.T broke up (in May of 2001) there were news of how much they were paid in 4 years and 8 months (since HOT debuted in Sept. 1996) and it was surprising. I remember Woo Hyuk made about 54,000US per year which really is not a lot, if you are a singer. Kangta and HeeJun made a little bit more than that. And Jaewon made the least.

**SM did not want to hire composers and writers, since they wanna save money, so made H.O.T members wrote their own music by 3rd album. So in every way SM was trying to make the most money outta these group, while spending the least on them.

**The stars don't get paid as much as many think they do. Like when you see a headline for example "BoA makes 80 Billion" or whatever, it's not entirely true. She doesn't even get 5% of the profit. None of it: the CF, concert, etc. It goes to SM and they use it to pay off other stuff. I think that a bit unfair.

** The rumors about singers in SM getting beatings is true. Shinhwa and H.O.T are definitely two groups that were mistreated. DBSK were probably mistreated prior to their debut, when they were in training. They do this to ensure that these singers will become a big sucess by training them to make no mistakes.

**Lee soo man hits singers with BASEBALL BATS AND GOLF CLUBS!!!!

**LSM made DBSG go on water diet, You know it mean that you lose weight by not eating ANYTHING and only drink water to keep you alive and walking...

**SM was training Shinhwa when they decided to just release HOT (an alternate band) and let them be a flop. I hear that Shinhwa's CD was postponed as HOT surprisingly enjoyed their success. When the success of their CDs died (although not by much), SM decided to sign the most popular members to make some profit but gave up on the whole "great success" thing. Then they released Shinhwa.

** SM singers only get 1% per cd, while all other gasoos get 17% - source – TIME MAGAZINE BABY.

credits: TVFXQ Forever + Kpopper.com

My teeth is 'dead' !

I went to fix my teeth last thursday (28/6) n in the evening my teeth feel hurt, i hv to eat panadol to control it... On the second day which is friday, my gum (gusi) was swelled (bengkak), n its reaaly really hurt me a lot... So i went to the clinic today, the dentist said that my teeth was holey so it was infected with bacteria, my nerve was infected too so my gum is swell... The dentist said that if i wan to keep my teeth then i hv to receive treatment to make the nerve dead or else i hv to take out my teeth.. This is the 1st time i take x-ray on my teeth so i'm quite afraid, after listen to the dentist, i feel unbelieveable, i never thought this will happen on me... So i agree with the dentist, she said i hv to go to the clinic for several times for the treatment.. Hopefully i can done the treatment before i go to study in august..